Anger

Wow, I am so glad I found this talk. Agency and Anger It is like a light bulb went off in my head.

Anger is a yielding to Satan’s influence by surrendering our self-control. It is the thought-sin that leads to hostile feelings or behavior. 


Understanding the connection between agency and anger is the first step in eliminating it from our lives. We can choose not to become angry. And we can make that choice today, right now: “I will never   become angry again.” Ponder this resolution.

Have you ever been faced with a challenge and been trying out how to fix things? I have read many conference talks and other things trying to figure out how to get a grasp with some aspects of my life. Reading this talk from 1998 really clicked with me. I have not been living as well as I should have. I have been letting anger into my life. I have chosen to be angry. This is not just something I can read scriptures on and it will go away it is something that I must get control of. I must let the spirit into my heart more so that when I reach these moments I have enough control to send Satan out. I would love to say I Will never become angry again. But today I cannot. I am going to try my best from this moment forward. 

This morning I know the Spirit helped me. I was in the freezer getting something in the midst of the before school ciaos. A child was upset with me because I did not attend to their needs at the very instant and they kicked the freezer door to shut it while I was still in there. I got up, I yelled, but then I paused. I sent him to his bed, He then called me stupid. I went in the room with the intent of giving him soap for saying a bad word. While there with him, Again I paused (I think the spirit if we listen will help is pause when it is needed). Instead of soap we had a short chat. Again these are not huge moments of the spirit telling me what to do, But they are what I need and are what is most important to me at this moment. 

I know I have a long way to go and a lot more to work on. But the fact that I am able to recognize that the spirit is helping me, is a huge support for the rest of the journey that I have to go. 

I am so thankful for a loving Heavenly Father who gave us the wonderful gift of the Spirit. I am thankful that He knows me well enough to know what I need and when I need it. I've never thought of it before but remember how we wanted to make our Dad/parents proud of us when we were younger? Why is it different with our Father in Heaven. Why should we not work to make him proud of us. I say this a lot but what makes Him proud is doing our best. He knows when we are trying and when we need the great big hug after a hard day of trying our best. I'm thankful that I am now realizing that he is there each and everyday.