Move on

After reading to many things about recent happenings on Facebook I got the impression to move on and spend less time on Facebook. I also went running this morning and passed by one of my bosses who had heard great things about my class last night. I am so happy to be teaching again. 

Letting kids know you love them.

On our 1 1/4 hour drive to the kids swim meet tonight, realized my parents did tons of driving to see me and my siblings play sports. (Annmarie was swimming the 100 IM I was so excited to see her). When I called him on the way home he said it was one way we let you all know we loved and cared about you. I'm so thankful my parents realized what was most important to me and showed their love. I hope I can do half as good as them. 

Faith

There has been lots of talk about the excommunication of a sister that was a member of the church. She created a group and is trying to get the church to give women the priesthood. I would guess there is only a small percentage of women in the church that agree with her. 

Why am I even writing this her? Well because I know that God wants us to get our own testimonies of the gospel and it's principles. We are encouraged to ask questions. But we are also told that we cannot receive revelation for anyone that we do not have stewardship over. I have loved the statements released by the church. They show love for thoses effected. 

How I felt the spirit in all this is truly by the stamens of the church. The tone was one of we love you still. We want you back but you have to decide you want to come back. I honestly think that is how our Savior talks to us when we make mistakes. Hey you made a mistake (sinned), but I still love you. I love you more than you can ever imagine. I am doing what I am doing to help you get out of the hole you are in. It will not be easy. But if you want to repent, and fix it I will be there for you. 

I hope somedays I am helping the Savior out by being his hands for someone who needs to know He loves them. 

He knows

Yesterday I was called as the 2nd counselor in the relief society in our ward. As a new person I was having a fear of what if I offended someone because I ask if they are new. In my setting apart that was discussed. It said I would come to know how to care for the sisters. And learn about them. It also blessed me to travel safe, since I live in the very north of our very large boundaries. I was impressed how He knows things I didn't think if but know that traveling at night is a problem for me. 

I was also impressed with how some people when they got released were saying it was because they had done a poor job in their calling. It bothered me some because that is not how The Lord operates and I have a feeling thy this is where some of the women struggle in this ward. 

A while

It has been too long. With the move I have been very poor at remembering to post. No good reasons. I'm tired, we were tearing down wall paper, the basement has water poring in. But over all we are happy. But back to the purpose of this blog. How I felt the spirit today. To be honest I'm not sure I did. I have not been focusing on it as much as I should have. I am posting here as a reminder that I need to pay attention better. Hopefully tomorrow's answer will be much more profound. 

Finals

Today Chris has his last final. I cannot believe we have made it. Somedays it seemed like it would never end (this year especially). As I sit waiting for him to finish, his last test is 6 hrs! I really can only think of the many many ways we have been blessed I have wonderful friends and family. We have see God's hand in so many aspects, if not everyone. I'm thankful this adventure is closing and a new one is coming. 

Noticing

We have had trouble with Jed. He can be a mouthy handful. Something has happened in the last week or so. He keeps pointing out to me that he has not been making bad choices. I usually just gloss over it. But as I look back on today there was really only 1 instance where he didn't make good choices. I'm glad as I pondered what to write tonight I noticed that. He really is changing, he is growing up. 

Sorry

I have been lazy. No excuse. Today was a day of answered prayers for 2 siblings ( that I know of). I cried tears of joy with one and prayed for them both. So glad that today their prayers were answered in ways that made them happy. 

Watching

Today while the 3 youngest were playing at the park I choose to just watch them for a bit. I love to see their imaginations and how they play. I was glad I stopped and watched what they were doing. 

spending time with Annmarie

Annmarie came home from school saying she wasn't feeling well. So I had her get in bed and we cuddled for about 45 min. It was wonderful. It brought peace to me, and I hope it helped with Annmarie.

Lack of

It seems when the schedules change that everything is thrown out of wack. With spring break last week and Carmen here we had a busy, but fun time. I remembered what happens when scripture reading is not done. The spirit starts to slowly go away. So today one of the kids mentioned how we were not very good at reading the scriptures last week and it reminded me that reading them invited the spirit in. I'm thankful for wonderful reminders like my kids, that the small things make. 

Answers

I got to go to the temple again. It was nice because I wasn't going with anything specific in mind. Which left me open to some other promotings that I hadn't thought of. So thankful for the temple. 

Running with Will

It was nice to run with Will today. I have been feeling that I need to spend a but more time with him. This was a great opportunity. So glad he wanted to run with me. 

Wonderful Weekend

Wow. I got to go to the temple. The spirit was so strong. I want to be like Eve and Peter. Then today we sang I Know That My Remember lives. There was a line. He hears my souls complaint. So thankful for that. 

Check my email

I was promotes to check my email 1 more time before I drove 45 min to a used dryer store. So glad I did. I got a dryer 2 miles from home and at half the cost and years newer. Thankful for small moments like this that make up my day

Things to work on

Ever have one of those days where it seems all your flaws and everything you need to work on gets pointed out to you. Yep that was today. Yes the spirit prompted reflection on some of those things and what I need to work on. Hopefully I can follow the promotings and do what needs to be done to fix some of my problems. 

No electronics

Today was a no electronics day. And it was pretty nice. I got to spend time outside with the 2 youngers. We went on a walk, played at 2 parks. It was a nice change of pace, and things felt calmer. 

Will

After a difficult night with Jed, Will was the kindest boy ever. He came and cleared off my bed, and wanted to make sure everything was good for me. 

I also had the spirit because during Jed's outbursts, I did not yell or scream at him. I remained calm. I'm thankful I had the spirit to keep me calm. 

A hard weekend

Let me start off and say I love the messages that a delivered during conference. The last few conferences have been very hard for me. Yesterday we ha baseball so we got home when the first session ended. Then the 2nd session the kids were out side but missing a whole day (8am - 2pm) left me with a few things that had to get done. So the 2nd session I heard very little of.  Today the kids were kids, an then halfway through our video feed pooped out, and we spent the rest if the session listening and not watching after missing 2 talks. The afternoon session was probably, the best for listening purposes but the last hour the kids were kids again and were so done with listening, being told to read in their rooms etc. So sadly this weekend I am not feeling very uplifted. I did not post this to wine etc. I am sad when I see things that people post about conference, that I did not hear. I am glad they got their message that they needed. I guess I need to go with the attitude that I just need to hear the stuff later, not right now. I know that we all have a time and a season, but I admit I wish that during 2 weekends a year my kids would let me actually watch conference.   

The one line that I heard, and stood out to me was "He accomplishes his miracles 1 prayer and 1 person at a time." It was given by a sister in the primary. 

Prayer

Jed said the sweetest prayer tonight. He prayer for the dr tomorrow doing his scope. Then he prayer for a family from Iowa who is having a hard time. And then he prayed and asked if we are supposed to go to algona. Oh he is listening to what we are saying. We must be doing something right with him. 

confirmation

Today it was once again confirmed to me that Algona is the right place for our family. I'm so thankful for wonderful people that God puts in our life so that we can realize were we are supposed to be.

nature

Being outside on a run with no music was wonderful this morning. I love being in something God created and seeing the rebirth or nature.

Breathe

As we (Jed, Henry and I) were walking out of the library to the car (maybe 70 yards). Jed decides to call me stupid about 50 times, also telling me I'm the meanest person ever, and that I'm killing him. All because he couldn't check out a movie from the library (you see I really did deserve it). Normally I would have lost it with him when we reached the car, but I calmly put Henry in his seat, the walked to the back of the car where Jed was pouting. I got down to his level and told him how I felt when he said those words to me.  I kept my voice calm and cool. Needless to say he did not improve that moment. But, I kept my temper in control, I choose to show kindness when meanness was presented. 

I think daily we all have to choice to pick kindness or pick meanness. Which ever one we pick with have a huge impact on at the very least our day. 

I'm thankful that the spirit was there to help me stay calm and choose to be kind. 

Sacrament meeting

Last week I got to go the relief society. I thought nothing of it. But the lesson was on oreparing better for the sacrament. This week I did. I got all cleaning done before Sunday. Things were not overly crazy this morning. So I had time to relax and pray that I could feel the spirit. Henry was in the hall with Chris, until after the sacrament was passed. I was able to pray and ponder and renew my covenats. It was a wonderful feeling, that I will not get every Sunday. I was so blessed and thankful to feel it today. 

Women's broadcast

I must admit when I heard they changed the age I the womans broadcast I was upset. I have always loved spending that 1.5 hours being uplifted, and being selfish. I was not excited to bring Annmarie. 

But when the primary president spoke and had the girls sing the first verse of teach me to walk in the light, it was a message to me from Heavenly Father. That is the song I sing when I am trying to get bad thoughts out of my head, etc. I knew it was to me. He was saying Karen this is what I want. 

Then as we watched the video about the temple recommends, I cried. The spirit was so strong. 

I realized that no Annmarie acted just as I thought. But on the way home I asked if she felt the spirit. She said she did, when we sang the songs. I love that she felt the spirit. 

For today and yesterday

Last night I had a major headache so I just went to bed. But my moment for the day was. I had driven to DC to get Chris and take him to a dr appointment. We dropped him off, then tried to find a drive through place to get food for the 2 kids. Needless to say, big cities don't have drive through stuff. So we drove back and found a place to park on the street where I could wait for Chris to be done. I left the music in for a bit to calm some children nerves. Let's just say about 30 minutes later I tried to start the car. A small little click.  It was dead. We prayed. Jed prayed. We tried again. Nothing. We waited and tried again. Henry was starving (I did not plan so well). Jed said I wish dad were here. He can fix it. When Chris came, he did fix the problem. And off we went. Later I was talking with Jed about it and said, "Did Heavenly Father answer our prayers?" 

"Yes"

"Was it answered right away?"

"No"

Then I proceed to tell him that Heavenly Father always hears our prayers and he always answers, just sometimes the answer is wait. Thankful for the teaching moment. 

Today I felt the spirit while talking with a friend at her home. I love that I can now see the spirit there is small simple things

Delete

Today I felt the spirit when I was responding to a text message the normal way I would when I think I am not really at fault. With a sorry then, this is why I did it. But I stopped deleted and and really looked at the other persons perspective. Then truly apologized and then said what I should have done. I thankful that the Spirit led me in a better direction.

Dancing

Today while Henry was watching Frozen, I watche the last 20 with him. Then the credits came on and we started dancing together. He was laughing I was smiling, then it hit me. I am so blessed to have him and all my other children. I love them and am so thankful that I was shown a glimpse of how blessed I was by the Holy Ghost. 

Faith in God

Tonight I was doing Faith in God with Annmarie. She was reciting some of the articles of faith. I knew the spirit was there. I love to see her testimony grow. 

Reading scriptures as a family

Tonight as we were reading scriptures in Helaman 2, Chris was doing an excellent job of making sure the kids knew what was going on. The was laughter, and joking but there was a peace in our home. I'm so blessed to have a husband who wants his kids to learn not just read from the scriptures. 

A child's prayer

I went to a stake activity day with Annmarie. The opening song was a child's prayer. They had the girls sing the first part, and the mothers the 2nd part. The spirit was amazingly strong. 

Peace

I'm amazed at something that bothered me so much a year ago is bringing me so much peace now. I am looking forward to moving to Algona and am happy about it. It feels so right.  What a difference a year makes

Being yourself

I felt the spirt today when I was comfortable enough to be myself while at a RS function. This year has been hard. The move to DC, being in a different ward. So the fact that I finally felt comfortable enough to be myself was wonderful. 

Kindness of others

Today I got 2 dental implants. Lets just say it was . . . fun? But that is not where I felt the spirit, although I'm sure if I think about it, when I was most stressed during the procedure (drilling/ gross liquid) I started to sing a hymn in my head. When I did this I was able to breathe deeply and relax, which doesn't happen with me. But where i really felt the spirit was where a kind friend who took Henry during the appointment, picked Jed up from pre-school and took them both to her house so I could nap. It truly was heaven sent. I'm thankful for others answering my prayers.

Answers to prayers

Today began with a horrible sinking feeling. It was continued from things we learned yesterday. Needless to say fear, doubt, and worry crept in over night, and ran wild this morning. Were these fears warranted. If I had perfect Faith than no. But I do not I am human, and I worry about things. I cried a lot today. I humbled myself and asked people close to me, to pray for us. I pleaded with the Lord, many times. I cried some more, read scriptures, conference talks and prayed and cried more. My biggest worry was not what would happen 3 months from now. It was for Chris. My biggest worry was that the struggles we are facing would distract him so much he could not do school work. Thankfully an answer came quickly today. It came and eased more than just one fear. Today I felt the spirit while praying, I knew My Father in Heaven cared about me and loves me. I knew that He heard my prayers, pleas and worries. I know He heard the prayers of those who were praying for us. I do not know how people make it in life without a knowledge of our Father in Heaven and His son Jesus Christ. I know I do not have perfect faith, and sometimes I stumble and fall, and question His plan. But I know He is kind and He lets us know what we need to know to have the Faith to hold on a little longer.

Easy

When we left Dubuque, we were not all that thrilled. The type of law wasn't exactly what Chris wanted to practice. And as the days passed, we had decided that we really didn't want to go there. Well today things were made easy. Chris did not get the job. While normally this would be a hard blow, we knew we didn't want to go there (maybe if we were offered millions that might change). But most importantly The spirit was preparing us for what was going to happen. I am thankful for this for myself but also for Chris. It is never easy to be told that you are not what they are looking for (it seems everyone wants 2 plus years of experience). I have never seen him react so calmly to bad news. I knew that the spirit had been speaking peace to our hearts. So now we are moving forward with Algona, and still looking to make sure we have no options left open. I know that Heavenly Father has a plan for us, I'm hoping that we can follow the spirit enough to get there.

Stake conference and scripture study

The only thing I got out of stake conference today (which was what I needed to hear the most)

If we are too focused on ourselves we impede revelation. 

Tonight when I went to read my scriptures (about 630 pm) Jeffrey asked if he could join me someday. I decided that he could join me tonight. I showed him a few different ways to study the scriptures. Then we did some things from Preach My Gospel. I was prompted to have him join me. Not sure why, but I hope this becomes the start of something good for us both. 

Song

While sitting at the adult session of stake conference tonight I was truly touched when a few youth sang and played the violin, viola, cello, and piano the sisters in Zion/army of Helaman. They had all the missionaries join on the last chorus. Very powerful.

Then the closing song was I'll go where you want me to go. Loves the last part of the 3rd verse 

So trusting my all to thy tender care,

And knowing thou loves' me,

I'll do thy will with a heart sincere

I'll be what you want me to be. 

I hope to beable to do that soon. It will be worth it. 

Kindness

Today after school I checked my email. I had received an email from the kids principal. It was about the 4th grade trip. His kindness was amazing and I was touched with spirit letting me know there are kind people everywhere not just in Iowa. 

Peace

While trying to figure out if visiting Dubuque was a success, as we are waiting for results, I have been blessed with a wonderful peace knowing that everything will workout as Heavenly Father intends. So thankful for that. 

too many

Today there were many times I felt the spirit. While I was Visiting Teaching. While talking to my Dad on the phone (the front window of a car is bigger than the back because it is more important to look forward than it is to look back. Be like Enoch not Moses) When We got our Costco membership rebate, which included enough extra to buy a box of diapers. When I read President Benson's talk Do not Despair. What I loved about today is it was not all filled with happiness but I was still able to feel the spirit multiple times.

Peace

What a turbulent day today has been. I've experienced a range of emotions today but I have peace right now. Peace meaning I'm where I'm supposed to be and doing what I should be doing. Love feeling that way. 

Prayer

Today Chris and I flew to Dubuque,IA for a job interview. As he was in the interview I prayed multiple times. I prayed he would do well. But mostly I prayed that we would do well with the outcome. Whatever it maybe. I had peace and hope that when we find out what happens, we will be at peace with the decision. 

conversations

We (Chris and I) went over to a friends house for Chris to get a priesthood blessing before his interview tomorrow. We were there for over 3 hours. Chatting. But what was wonderful was we chatted about gospel things, non gospel things and everything in between. I love having a friend who we can talk like this. So thankful for friendships where talking about the gospel is natural.

Sun

It was so wonderful to be outside today. Feeling the warmth of the sun was wonderful. It makes me thankful that spring is coming. I love spring. It really is the rebirth of so many things. I love the spring brings Easter and the resurrection on my Savior. I'm so thankful for Him and all that he did for me.

Phone call

I have been stressing about the interview next week and decided to call (felt promoted) to call a wonderful friend. It was so nice and peaceful and calming to talk to her. 

How to say it.

Going to law school I accepted the fact that for 3 years we were going to be poor, and need help. Being the proud person I am I had a lot of humbling that needed to be done. I was prepared for it for 3 years (or I became prepared, or forced etc). I was not prepared for an extra year of needing "help." 

On Tuesday I received a text to call someone and I instantly knew what it was for. It was offering help. I got the text and cried. I was (am still kind of am) at the breaking point. I'm sick of feeling needy on others (be it a person or an organization). This last year of law school has been especially trying for a multitude of reasons. After I told Chris he needed to call the person. I have begun to see that this text/phone call to offer help was an answer to our fasting and prayers. This was not the way I had planned for it to go. I wanted a miracle. I wanted it my way. But as we often learn through life our way is not the best way. Again and again I am seeing by keeping this journal that it is the small and simple things. 

Please do not take this as I am not thankful for the help. I am. I could not be more thankful. But, one gets to the point that they want to be self sufficent. They want to feel needed and useful. 

I have come to think that satan uses this to his advantage very very well. When people have passed the point of feeling useful and needed it is easy to keep them entrapped in the snare of perpetual assistance. 

I'm thankful that ours is hopefully coming to an end very soon (please please). I am thankful for the wonderful services that we have received. I know that all we can do to say thank you is to pay it forward someday when we can. 

So I felt the spirit today by realizing that there is a time and a season for all things. 

Time

I felt the spirit today when I decided to spend time with just Jed after bed time. We read half if a chapter of Harry Potter 1.  I need to be better about spending more time with my kids individually. I'm so thankful for them and the opportunity I have of being their Mom here on earth. 

Example

I felt the spirit today as I realized that I discovered the person who holds the glue together in a circle of friends. I am so thankful that I am friends with her and can see her example, and hope to be more like her.

being together

Sometimes it is just nice to feel the peace of sitting on the couch with your kids and enjoying the moment. Love this and yes since there was love there so was the spirit.

Music

Sunday's tend to be hard days for me to feel the spirit. Interesting Huh? Well with 2 kids 5 and under who have no desire to be quite during a 1 plus hour sacrament meeting. Then on to Primary where I watch my 5 year old make not so great choices in a large group setting only to go teach my 6 yr old's class to occasionally have the Spirit there.

There is one way that I can always feel the spirit on Sunday though. It is through the songs we sing. Our closing Song today (after a bit of a stressful meeting) Was Go Forth with Faith. I've song this song lots of times but as I was using my finger to point to Jed where we were the end of the 2nd verse really struck me.

Go forth to serve and do your best

With no thought of reward;

Then you shall know the boundless joy

Of serving Christ, the Lord.

I don't know why it hit me so hard today. But The Go forth to serve and do your best. That is all we are ever asked to do is our best. After a hard meeting it was nice to hear that I was doing my best at that moment. Yes I do long for the days where I can actually pray during the passing of the sacrament. But Heavenly Father is kind, He lets me feel the spirit, for what will impact me the most. Do your best, and have boundless joy. 

Exercise

How can exercise help me feel the spirit. Well lets just say I exercise to keep my body in the clothes I own. But the other reason almost the bigger reason is It keeps me sane and calm. Everyone has their "thing" that helps them through the day. I have to exercise. I have to get a great workout or I am not a happy person. Today I decided to be lazy and not get up and exercise. By midday I was a mess. I was angry, my patience was gone and I still had 7 hours until bedtime. I had thought of just laying around, but the spirit prompted me to exercise. After a great workout, I felt so much better. I could think clearer, I felt the tension come off my shoulders. I hope everyone has something like this that helps them kick all the junk out of their heads and start fresh.

Heavenly Fathers Hand

I started reading the book 1776 yesterday. I am not very far in it but I can tell you already, that there was no way we should have won. The only way we could have won the revolutionary war was with God's help. I'm thankful that I can see that and that I can be thankful for His hand.

I'm also thankful that I can have gospel discussions with my visiting teachers, and with friends. So glad that I feel comfortable with the spirit that I can share things.

Blessing

As I was driving home from a friends house, who let me run on her treadmill!! Oh how wonderful that was (yes you read that right). I miss running. It needs to warm up a bit because I need to get my run on! I was thinking about how good our Van has been for us. We got a great deal on it 7 1/2 years ago. It has given us very little problems and I paused (I'm beginning to see a theme here) and said a pray. Why because we have a van that is 7 1/2 years old that works for our family still. What a huge blessing this has been to our family. I'm so happy that this has been a blessing for our family.

Anger

Wow, I am so glad I found this talk. Agency and Anger It is like a light bulb went off in my head.

Anger is a yielding to Satan’s influence by surrendering our self-control. It is the thought-sin that leads to hostile feelings or behavior. 


Understanding the connection between agency and anger is the first step in eliminating it from our lives. We can choose not to become angry. And we can make that choice today, right now: “I will never   become angry again.” Ponder this resolution.

Have you ever been faced with a challenge and been trying out how to fix things? I have read many conference talks and other things trying to figure out how to get a grasp with some aspects of my life. Reading this talk from 1998 really clicked with me. I have not been living as well as I should have. I have been letting anger into my life. I have chosen to be angry. This is not just something I can read scriptures on and it will go away it is something that I must get control of. I must let the spirit into my heart more so that when I reach these moments I have enough control to send Satan out. I would love to say I Will never become angry again. But today I cannot. I am going to try my best from this moment forward. 

This morning I know the Spirit helped me. I was in the freezer getting something in the midst of the before school ciaos. A child was upset with me because I did not attend to their needs at the very instant and they kicked the freezer door to shut it while I was still in there. I got up, I yelled, but then I paused. I sent him to his bed, He then called me stupid. I went in the room with the intent of giving him soap for saying a bad word. While there with him, Again I paused (I think the spirit if we listen will help is pause when it is needed). Instead of soap we had a short chat. Again these are not huge moments of the spirit telling me what to do, But they are what I need and are what is most important to me at this moment. 

I know I have a long way to go and a lot more to work on. But the fact that I am able to recognize that the spirit is helping me, is a huge support for the rest of the journey that I have to go. 

I am so thankful for a loving Heavenly Father who gave us the wonderful gift of the Spirit. I am thankful that He knows me well enough to know what I need and when I need it. I've never thought of it before but remember how we wanted to make our Dad/parents proud of us when we were younger? Why is it different with our Father in Heaven. Why should we not work to make him proud of us. I say this a lot but what makes Him proud is doing our best. He knows when we are trying and when we need the great big hug after a hard day of trying our best. I'm thankful that I am now realizing that he is there each and everyday. 

Eggs?

As I was praying this morning Jed came running in and asked if it was time to makes eggs yet. I asked him to wait until I was done praying. While praying I got the thought, let him help you make them. I dislike the kids to help with the eggs because of the egg shells gross yoke etc. But I let him help me. He only wanted to do 1 but hey I listened right? I thought that I would find big times each day that the spirit would speak to me but I think I am finding that the spirit can be in small seemingly unimportant things.

Not sure who I felt prompted to help today, maybe it was Jed with the eggs. maybe it hasn't happened yet.

I found this quote this morning while reading
Sweet Moments by Bonnie D Parkin  "Mothers, you are instruments in God’s hands, with a divine responsibility to teach and nurture your children. Little ones so need your kind and loving hand. As you put them first, He will direct you how to best serve them."

It really helped me to remember what my true calling is here. Plus I have not been as lazy today. I made breakfast for the kids, went to the bus stop, did my workout (it was brutal). Went to Wegman's with beautiful snow falling everywhere. Then came home lunch, dishes, more laundry, cleaned the kitchen floor etc, threw dinner in the crock pot, did my regular blog. Now watching Little Einsteins with the kids while eating popcorn. I'd have to say that today has over all been a pretty good day. Now I realize there is 4 more hours until bedtime and I am missing 3 kids for 30 more min, but so far today is great!

Silence

Today was early out. The kids get home 2 hours earlier than normal. Usually it turns into a day of tv, computer and kindle. Today I decided that we woul go to the library and get books for the kids. On the way home the car ride was silent. All 5 kids were reading. I felt that the spirit was telling me good job on choosing books today over electronics. 

I also was talking to a friend on the phone this morning. She is having a hard time. I ended up crying with her. After I realized that I was blessed with the spirit to respond after I notice something on social media seemed a bit off. If anything came out of the conversation it was that I was going to pray for her. While sometimes praying may seem small it can have huge blessings to both people. 

I'm glad I got to pay a bit better attention to the spirit. 

Why

At our ward conference 2 Sundays ago we were all asked to write down how we can help others come to Christ. I decided at this moment in my life the best thing I can do it to work on myself and improve the areas that need the most help. Here are my two goals

1. Write down daily moments when I felt the spirit.
2. Pray for opportunities to help others

For me at this point in my life right now I need the most help in these areas. First off because I think if we do not focus on remembering the spirit when it comes we will never pay attention when it comes. The second area is because I am struggling. Well aren't we all really struggling? The only way I know to make the struggle seem less to me is to help others. Hopefully I will be good about this.

I don't expect others to read this, because I mostly want to see where I started and where I have changed. My goal is to do this daily. We shall see how I do.